disappointed

never thought that all these would happen right b4 leaving KL....want happy happy gather ha also canot....sighh....suddenly wanna run away from KL somemore...will it be better in year 2010??

Decision

decision is always hard to make especially when it relates to ur family...but i hope they understand this is a choice where financial problem could be settled..i know it is hard and they worry bout me..but we never know if we never try..it is also difficult for me to make this decision...it takes me tons and tons of courage to do this...i hope u guys will support me instead of showing me that u worry...

奇怪。。。

今晚突然有一种很慕名奇妙的感觉。。总是觉得怪怪的。。我不是应该觉得是一种解脱吗？？为什么会有一种放不开的感觉？？一直重复的深呼吸却还是一样。。。我该怎么办好呢？？无论我再深呼吸多少遍，那奇怪的感觉还是存在。。。突然迷失了方向了。。。

imbalance...

time really passess very fast..its almost a yr working in this company..which the longer i work the more i feel imbalance in my heart...why some people able to just sit there and unallocated all day and no one allocate them for job..and some people have to work every single job with tight deadlines??are those people responsible for allocation blind??can't see others are free??or they pretend to be blind cannot see those name??

the most unfair part is why busy and free people receiving the same pay??izit to say pretty ladies get to be pampered and those not to say very pretty or not pretty have to take over those "vase" job??really cant understand the company's management....

Hope that i could leave asap....

sigh...

最近有很多话想说却每当话到嘴边时就说不出来。。。是表达能力有问题还是因为别的借口呢？？连想告诉朋友的话也得再三考虑才会说出口。。是因为太久没联络而变得生疏吗？？还是觉得没人会明白才不说？？每当想找人聊聊却一个人影都找不到。。难道我真得没什么朋友吗？？或许这是我的命运吧。。早就该习惯。。心情真得很沉重。。。

every corner is so dark and scary...

hmm...realise that this world is much more realistic than wat i thought...every corner in the office is so dark and scary..everyone is so fake..which make my liang roma also stand ah..i really dont understand why human can side someone so bad even tat person dont worth it..dont ppl realise how many ppl out there are the victims??rather to push someone to another level although such ppl is just a vase and not reliable??wat kind of theory is this!!!i really hope things can just pass like tat without affecting anyone's feeling and relationship..

in such working place..we shd leave or stay??god pls decide for me..pls...

wish me luck!!

hmmm..left 38 hrs to go for my last paper for ACCA..hopes this time can really pass..cuz really study this subject until numb adi..and also the paper which need to reseat for n times..aiks..i dont hope for other things this year but PLS PLS let me pass this paper..PLS!!!pls give me some luck here...let me dream of the topic coming out when i sleep..hehe...

thanks Mum

a movie reminded me something i will never forget for the rest of my life..guess most ppl noe wat happened 18 mths ago..and wat happen before this 18 mths ago..how we passed this path together..

this scar will never recover..how u treated us..how u did things wrong..i thought i had forgotten about it but no i did not..this will be part of my memory and how dissapointed am i u never turn up whenever we needed u..and now when we dont need it anymore u started to care but u cant do anything about it..and ppl which dont understand wat we have been thru will tend to ask we it has to be this way..

mayb it is better to be like this now..and i really wanted to thank my mum for being such a great mum and brave and tough..without u we wont be here so happy and feel warm being protected..although sometimes u mumble..wat are we suppose to do if u are not with us one day..we love u.. :)